Just got home from work. tired. sleepy. hungry. ano pa ba? haha. anyway, my xanga looks great now, thanks to my cousin,ehem, yenterb. THANK YOU hunbuns. i love it! work is great, i started my training this week. monday and tuesday was hell, i had to go to eastwood (which, btw, is like two hours away) i  had to get up at 5am just to get there on time. i met a lot of kulit people, haha, i miss them already. Im pretty excited for next week kase im goin to be assigned in alabang na. nearer, neater and uh...nearer. lol.

okay, thats it. cant think of anything else to say.

Freshmen by Verve Pipe

When I was young I knew everything 
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice 
Now I'm gilt stricken, 
Sobbing with my head on the floor 
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice 
I can't be held responsible 
Cause she was touching her face 
I won't be held responsible 
She fell in love in the first place 

For the life of me I cannot remember 
What made us think that we were wise and 
We'd never compromise 
For the life of me I cannont believe 
We'd ever die for these sins 
We were merely freshmen 

My best friend took a week's 
Vacation to forget her 
His girl took a weeks's worth of 
Valium and slept 
Now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his 
Head on the floor 
Thinks about her now and how he never really 
Wept he says 

We've tried to wash our hands of all this 
We never talk of our lacking relationships 
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our 
Heads on the floor 
We fell through the ice when we tried not to 
Slip, we'd say

I love this song, haha, someone told me to listen to this song and well, yeah, i loved it.
here's another song. 

THE TRACKS OF MY TEARS
People say I'm the life of the party
'cause I tell a joke or two
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears..
I need you, need you
Since you left me if you see me with another guy
Seeming like I'm having fun
Although he might be cute
he's just a substitute
Because you're the permanent one..
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears..
I need you, need you
Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown oh yeah
Since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you..
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears
 
im leaving today. im sad. but im okay. im gonna miss them so much! especially my three babies
shobs, shots and bretney.  anyway, when i get back in the philippines ill just make myself busy..
take driving lessons and inquire for grad school...im gonna talk to c.a so we could take it together..
(para may tutor ako sa accounting.lol.) i was chatting with carlo earlier...haay. its hard pretending 
everythings okay...or everythings gonna be fine..when in fact, things arent really going smoothly. 
i know my choices..on what to do...im scared to pick...but regardless of what i choose or not choose,
its still gonna end up hurting him. i dont think he's going to be happy with me and i with him. our lives' 
focuses are so far apart that its hard to keep things together. I dont know if ill be able to give what he's
expecting out of me..im not ready for it. im really really really not ready. its scares me. just the thought
of it terrifies the hell out of me for some reason. and he didnt sense that. haay. this is so messed up.

my vacation is gonna end on the 7th..its been fun..really. its funny how im going to miss everyone here. even if we just spent so little time together, it felt like ive known them forever. lol. meeting my baby cousin, finally, has been wonderful..so is tita brenda and their friends here at glendale. seeing kristle again after like ten fucking years was amazing. its sad i wasnt able to see the people that i was hoping to but its ok...maybe next time. lol.

im kinda sad to leave. i dont know why. to think i just spent no more than two weeks here. ill miss shobe and shoti...tita tess, tito rudy with the glasses and tito rudy without the glasses...tito cesar and his daughter michelle..everyone. ill miss how great the weather is compared to the philippines..ill miss having to cross the street on the right places..having to push that button..in and out burger..lol...ill miss those things.

i was thinking of getting a job here..or studying here..but i dunno..i dont know yet if i could live here by myself..yes i have my aunt and uncle but still, i want independence..its complicated just by thinking about it. i dont know if im ready for that. oh well...